Saturday, November 15, 2008
Maybe I'm a duck.
I was watching Chuck and Sarah says that Chuck's a duck. He seems to be gliding along and moving very slowly but his little feet are kicking away.
But I AM trying and I just feel defeated. I mean, I am by no means going to stop doing what I'm doing. I'm always going to strive and try as best as I could, but everything is stagnant right now, it's upsetting.
I want my dad's books Escape 2 Earth, Return 2 Earth and Earth 2 to get picked up by a publisher. I want it to become successful, he'll be 60 soon and he and and my mom have worked hard their entire lives. It isn't fair.
I want to find my niche in something! Something I'm passionate about versus something I'm good at. We all get up and go to work everyday and it's tiring. And I know we aren't the only ones trying or deserving but I wish we knew the way.
I want to be independent and succesful. I'm willing to do the work, but right now I'm simply stuck. And being stuck feels like I'm trapped.
I feel like I've been lied to. I was told if you worked hard and did what you were told good things would happen to you and I feel like that whole thing was pumped up far more than what it actually is. Sure, nothing bad has happend to me but nothing exceptional has happend to me either.
How do you stand out and become special?
Saturday, November 1, 2008
The main complaint I have about Yellow Fever is how Dean was used too often as the butt of jokes. Okay, we get it he's scared of stuff! I think Andrew Dabb and Daniel Loflin could redeem themselves. I just don't want them using trial and error methods with my favorite show. They're on probation right now.
But bravo goes to Julie Seige for writing It's the Great Pumpkin, Sam Winchester. I really liked this episode and the mixture of urban legend (which I SO missed) and mytharch was seamless and I LOVED it. Yes! Excellent job.
I wish I could write an episode for Supernatural. Is it as fun as I think it is? I hope so.
Friday, October 31, 2008
::sweetly:: And I will tell you why. heehee
This episode had it all:
-Urban Legend opener, loves it!
-Sam and Dean angst
-Sam and Dean fighting evil
I feel the undercurrent of season one and I love season one.
So here's the other thing, I love Sam. See:
And I felt so bad for him when Castiel just made him feel bad, evil, insignificant all at the same time. Sam's not used to that, if you notice the angels were really interested in talking to Dean.
Sam's used to being head honcho and all and now he's second fiddle to Dean, again.
Back to Castiel. he was just like, oh, so you're the guy with the demon blood. Like that's all he is to them. And you can see how Sam felt so small, good job Jared. I wanted to crawl underneath the bed for him. He just based him right there.
But I think that after meeting Sam and seeing what he's about. This is why he's now questioning his orders. Sam isn't evil, but he's got something evil inside of him, what to do? what to do? You heard Ruby they smite first and ask questions later. But now he's got a chance to see Sam before he has to smite, what will he do?
I love the portrayal of the angels. I like how the actors are very into it. They make sure to make the viewer aware that they aren't human, the way they walk and move around as if they were new to their bodies. I like that, it makes it more real.
There's still this undercurrent from season 2, also known as "What did John say to Dean?" season! And know we have two secrets to contend with "What was Dean doing in hell?" and "What was Sam doing while Dean was in hell?" Neither one pleases me.
A lot of people have theories that Dean did some torturing in hell so that he would be spared of being tortured himself and that, that's realistically (if the situation were real) possible. I mean you're in hell, getting your ass kicked in ways you couldn't even imagine and suddenly you get offered a reprieve? Well, no matter what the form of the reprieve is in, you're going to take it cuz your in hell. And I mean I know what the out is, because those guys were evil and they deserved hell, but does everyone who goes to hell really deserve hell? We really don't know where the line is drawn, maybe there were some people down there who could've almost made it to heaven. People like Dean or John. Can you imagine, being at your lowest of your lowest point so low you'd torture someone else to save yourself. That bothers me.
Another thing that bothers me is Sam getting it on with a demon. Oh my God, I can't even. I can't. I think I've discussed this earlier so I won't go into it again, but the hell Sam?! Oh no. I'm supposed to be doing my homework and editing this story.
Monday, October 27, 2008
How do you do that? I know of things that’ll make a difference in other people’s lives: volunteering at organizations that help those less fortunate than you are, but that’s not what I mean. What I mean is…how do you find something that you like to do and not only do you like to do it – are you able to excel at it?
For instance I like to write. But I don’t know how good of a writer I am. Writing is subjective, like any other form of art. One person may love it another may think it’s not worth wiping their behind with it. And that’s the selfish side of this thought the other side is – is what you’ve chosen to do important? Who wants to do something frivolous for the rest of their life? So here’s the criteria:
Something that you like to do
Something that you’re good at
Something that’s meaningful and important to humankind
And then there’s the bummer part of this whole thing – life is hard. You still need to be able to take care of yourself. So is this chosen path in your life something substantial enough to keep you going through life? Or will you have to take the road often traveled and take on a job you hate because you didn’t know how to get to where you want to be?
You think you’re doing everything right. And that all you need to do is be patient and that good things will come to you. But there’s the hanging fear that suffocating fear that creeps up while you’re at work or while you’re ready to go to bed that nags at you. You start to wonder what if good things don’t come to you? What if you’ve been wasting your time and all of your hard work actually means nothing at all? What then? Whose fault is it? Is it because you didn’t try hard enough? Is it because you’ve befriended and listened to the wrong people? Because in the end it’s ultimately your fault and there’s no one person or web site that can tell you exactly what to do.
No one knows. There is no set pattern. There is no set formula. There are thousands of accomplished people who all became accomplished through the people they meet and the circumstances that’s come to them. I don’t believe in luck, but listening to some of these stories it’s almost impossible not to.
Is it possible to have a mid-life crisis at 22? I look on at people who have more accomplishments at my age than I do and I’m happy for them, but at the same time, I want to be able to stand as tall as they do. I feel like I’m wasting time, but I don’t know what I should be doing.
I get all kinds of advice from people I don’t want to be anything like. And I know that sounds bad, but these people admit to hating their lives and wishing for more. And to me that’s not an ideal candidate for someone I want to get advice from.
It’s just lately I’m feeling like I have to settle and find ways to cheer myself up. I’ll think about things that I want and I’m in nowhere near a position to get it and then I have to say things like “At least your healthy.” “At least you have your own car.” And I find myself going down this list of the minimal in my life. And then I wonder, where is this going? Where will I be in 5 – 10 years? When I was 15, I thought things would be far more further than they are now. I’d say I have about a quarter of what I thought I would have now. But that’s better than nothing (see I’ve done it again).
The landscape of my life has changed so much of the past years and I look on to some of the other people in my life and they’re so bitter and angry. And I want to be neither of those things. I want to work, I can try hard, I can do things and I feel like I’m muddling through and wavering. I’ve been grasping at every opportunity that I can to make myself a better person and to help my family in any endeavors they wish to take on, but nothing has really punched through. Things get better and then they get bad and we’re just hanging on throughout the entire ride.
I’m used to plans. I’m used to being told to do things and then doing it the best as I could. Not this…not this way of life, not following plans and then getting nothing of what you wanted or a little of what you wanted. I’m getting so tired. I graduate in December and I have no idea of where I’ll be.
Everyone always asks me what do you want to do, and I want to write. But is someone really going to hand a recent college grad anything they ask for?
I’ve been having st
Saturday, October 25, 2008
Talk about being sensitive.
And I didn't think that Route 666 was as bad as everyone said it was. I think the complaints over weight how bad the ep actually was. I mean, I think Route 666 gets more complaints than Bugs. It just really seems as if Supernatural fans just behave as if Bugs never existed and never aired.
It's rainy here. So bummbed out.
Friday, October 24, 2008
I do think I write an episode of Chuck or something or write for my own show.
Ah, I'll stick to re-writing my novel. And start my next one. I want them to come out at the same time.
I've tried not to get into this whole thing with Sara Palin, but really Sarah? A Louis Vuitton for a 7 year old! Can she even spell it? I mean, what does a 7 year old need with a purse anyway. I didn't get one until I was a little older for "special reasons". It's way past ridiculous.
And lets not forget about the girl who got attacked in PA said a black man did it and scratched the letter b into her face. Why the f*ck would anyone ever do that, ever?
I love that they've FINALLY fixed the filter. It's appropriately light when it's supposed to be and appropriately dark and scary when it's supposed to.
Let's start from the beginning.
LOVE IT! Okay? Love it. Dean comes back, bam! Business as usual.
Not loving a demon possessed girl running around Sam's hotel room in her undies.
Are You There God It's Me, Dean Winchester
Kripke if you ever make an ep title this long again. I'll harm you. But another great episode. Brought back some old faves, I was expecting to see Jess and some others but that would've been a too way perfect episode.
Not really liking Meg call Sam a monster for what he's "doing" with Ruby. Gave me creepy creepy chills.
In the Beginning
So Mary's a hunter. Sounds familiar. Sounds like something I've been telling everyone since the SECOND SEASON FINALE! I knew it! Well, I didn't know it, but it's awesome. And she's sweet and she kicks ass and there were moments like "Okay, mister stop it." Hilarious. And Dean tearing up while talking to him mom. Love it!
It was a good episode. Nice to see a monster of the week episode. It was gross. But is it just me or is it that the guys are starting to suck? Season one and two they were on their ps and qs and now...it just seems like they seem to need help a lot or get people killed.
Not loving the demon saying "what you two do in the dark" please let that mean demon code for patty cake or something that's not sexual. I can't handle my darling sammy doing the nasty with a demon. I just....Sam!
Why? I mean it was funny and I know about the reason behind the black and white but no more episodes like that this season. You only get one.
What did I just say? Alright fine, although it it hilarious to watch Jensen Ackles run away from an adorable puppy. The whole Dean's afraid thing went on for far too long in the episode, we got it. But it was hilarious to hear things such as "that green bitch was totally out to get him" hee hee. Dean screaming like a girl at that was...it wasn't that funny.
But I am noticing how Sam's growing, he's taken on more command and responsibility - not just in this episode. Sam, Sam now has swagger. I don't know if it's just Jared or a deliberate writing move. But you know, Sam is becoming more like Dean, well the way Dean was. It seems as if they've almost, almost switched roles.
Dean used to be the black and white guy while Sam wanted to think and overlook everything and now Sam is like this is black and white but he seems to be wrong in his thinking. I mean he wanted to kill a virgin last year so...Things are changing.
All in all. I love Jared and I love Jensen and I hope they love doing Supernatural or else I would feel horrible for gaining pleasure from their misery. But judging by the "Eye of the Tiger" extra clip we got yesterday I'm guessing that they're having FAR too much fun which is cool with me. I hope we get more things like that.
Adorkable. I mean who starts singing Eye of the Tiger like that? Dorks. A cute dork nonetheless.
I'm not looking forward to this next episode, It's Halloween, Sam Winchester. Whenever an episode is done when they bring back EVERYTHING they've ever faced, we always see like a couple of bad guys we've seen before. Don't say EVERYTHING because when you say that people are going to look for the things that didn't show up.
When did Bobby have the time to learn Japanese? It's getting to be a bit much on that too. Spanish maybe. That way we can go into how he used to hunt in Mexico or something. But Japanese? Unless that used to be apart of Bobby's job and he's actually rich and he quit his rich job to hunt full time? Huh? Okay, I can buy it now.
Monday, October 20, 2008
I suppose I'll start with the things that I'm always doing:
Helping My Dad with his novel: Escape 2 Earth
School (this is my last year: two months to go)
And they've all been pretty hard to deal with. But I'll start with school and work. I'm a part-time receptionist at an assisted living facility who wants to work in tv, film or I'll even take radio. So I don't know how to get started into something like that or when to start applying.
I may have to leave this big city to get a good job, there's too much competition and it's all about who you know.
The same with my dad's book. I've been searching and contacting people to get him signed on for conventions and book fairs, but book fair's cost money to get a table at and scifi conventions are few and over here in the east coast so...I don't know what I'm going to do about that.
I've sent out a query letter to Simon and Schuster to see if we could get my dad's second book, Return 2 Earth published there. And I've finished the extremely roughest draft you'd ever seen in your life to my own book called, Secrets of a Deltorian Princess: The Quest to Save Xanar. But like I said it's nowhere near finished and absolutely no one knows about it. And no one ever reads this blog to my knowledge so no one still knows about it.
So here's my checklist:
Find a new job in my field
Help my dad with his books
Finish my own book
Become independent in every way
Saturday, October 11, 2008
Not as awesome as Bobby is, but he's cool.
I figured it out a split second before he said it, but that's what everyone says so I doubt if anyone would believe my second before it happens I KNEW IT! moment.
Castiello, um, scares me.
He tore Dean from hell! 100 points
It took him four months. down to 90 points
He's got work for Dean to do, from God! back to 100 points
He threatned to put Dean back in hell. NO! Down to 80 points
He took Dean back in time and he saw his parents back to 100 points
He took away Pam's sight 90 points
But she was flirting with Dean and I didn't like her groping him so back to 100 points
Oh Castiello, your steely demeanor is welcomed because it's different but you worry me about this whole end of the world business.
First Ruby's back, and I knew she would be, I knew they were setting things up for Sam and Ruby in season 3, but the writer's strike happend and it was all jacked up for a bit. So, now Ruby's back running around Sam's hotel room practically naked. okay. And I say okay in the skeptical tone like ooookay.
Then, BAM! Nikki (Meg) comes back as not Demon!Meg but regular human Meg. And she's still awesome, even as she's beating up Dean. And she calls Sam a monster and says "What you're doing with that demon." Alright fine! That could mean anything! So you mean him practicing his powers with Ruby right? Right?
NO! Says the demon in the start of Metamorphosis. "slutting around" are you kidding me SAM? For all intents and purposes that his not her body! Ruby is using some other girls body and forcing it to do things with Sam she doesn't want to do. That's rape. I'm not kidding. That's demon rape.
Unless things aren't as they seem but what else could "slutting around" mean? "The things you two do in the dark?" I'm having a heart problems over this. Using demon powers is one thing. Havind sex with a demon in another person's body is a WAY WAY other thing.
I'm flipping out. Whatever. Whatever, Eric, and Kim, and Sera and Kathryn whatever you guys suck and I can't wait until next Thursday!
I mean, Dean died so Sam could shack up with a demon. Ahhhh! Oh god. Give me a break.
And then they broke up. So my hope for them is to progress in any aspect of their lives. Hopefully people have been leaving them alone about their private lives. I don't read a lot of magazine articles unless it's months later because I want to avoid spoilers.
I hope there's no gossip, no sordid tales of he said she said, just let them be. It's not our business. I am rooting for them to get back together though, because....well LOOK at that picture. C'mon.
No. I don't know what I'd do. Uusally when I meet celebrities (the all 3 of them, ha yea) I'm usually too caught off guard to be starstruck. So I end up acting normal anyway, just like I want to be.
I don't want to have a chance to overthink how I should act or what I should say. I want to be normal. Well, as normal as I could get. I don't want them to freak out. I think actors are like deers in the forest. If you seem overexcited to be around them or are disingenius with them you'll scare them away.
Mostly because you've made them feel uncomfortable. I don't want to cause anyone to feel uncomfortable! I want people to feel happy or at peace around me, not stressed.
FedCon was awesome despite the bad planning and then eventual shutting down. But I did get to meet John Billingsley and his wife Bonita Friedericy. The KINDEST people I have ever met in my short life. I'm 22. The first day of meeting them, they wanted to adopt me! LOL! I was like I'm 22. They were like that's the PERFECT age to adopt someone, you're almost finished college no upbringing to do. Hilarious.
I don't know what'd I'd do if I met Jared or Jensen. I hope I'm normal, haha. I do think they're good actors. I really do. Hopefully I'll be a succesful writer and we can all get together and be like Tim Burton and Johnny Depp. Because doesn't it seem like Johnny Depp is in ALL of Tim Burton's movies? Yea, I want Jared and Jensen to be in ALL of my movies.
Sounds good, right guys?
The adults are courteous and kind when you smile they smile back. And God bless the children they've raised who are mannerly and respectful.
Only in Largo would I be able to not only see in person but meet Nikki Giovanni. I hope the citizens of Largo realize what kind of treasue they have in their citizens and work hard to perserve that, because it's rare.
Everyone was welcoming and sweet, even the people who didn't buy my dad's book. If you don't like sci-fi that's fine, but they were still very nice.
I nearly knocked over one of the greatest African American activists in history. Ms. Nikki Giovanni was there and my father had written a piece on the current state of African Americans in today's society, called Legacy Lost and she's mentioned it in. So, I didn't think it wouldn't hurt for her to have a copy.
I rushed over, me and one other lady I don't know what she wanted but EVERYONE was watching me run like a crazy woman over to her and she stopped so suddenly (I was behind her) I nearly knocked her over! Oh my God! I'm laughing about it now, but I would've been so embarrased if I had actually knocked her over and worse hurt her. So, there's extra proof that God is looking out for me all of the time.
I cut the other lady off, I apologized for doing so, gave her my dad's piece and left.
She was nice.
Wednesday, August 20, 2008
In all of the Star Treks I've always enjoyed watching the doctors. The characters can't survive without doctor. They all play curcial roles, and I like them.
McCoy - he's such a smartass. And that was the overly dramatic Star Trek so everything was such a big deal then.
B. Crusher - I liked her because she was gentle. Everyone liked her and she wasn't just a doctor. They sent her on away team like actual missions. One time she went with Worf and Picard on a mission and I was like whoa, but she's the doctor. But she held her own. She's awesome.
Bashir - I've just started to watch DS9, but I like what I've seen of this Dr. he's not annoying and he was pretty funny, not intentionally in the holodeck episode when the crew was trapped in the holodeck. The secret agent ep.
Sunday, August 17, 2008
I'll start off by saying. OF COURSE hindsight is 50/50 but why in the world would you start a movie and then start re-writing it in the middle.
I feel bad for everyone involved. That's false advertising. Do you think Keanu Reeves would've signed up for The Matrix if the movie ended with Neo dying in the end? No, I mean dying and staying dead in the end.
What the hell? The movie you've re-written is not the movie everyone signed on to do. What's going on here? If you really look at the movie Jake makes out with his mom...sorry his demon mom. What?
Really? How can you start a movie with the main character saying "Everything makes sense now." But then end the movie with "Did I imagine it all?"
Well in the beginning of the movie you said EVERYTHING made sense. what?
I liked what I thought the movie was forming to be. They should've ended the movie like this:
Jake finds out he's a demon hell spawn child or whatever. He goes to a priest just like he did in the movie but this priest will be more helpful. He tells Jake that all humans can be healed, cleansed and reach for atonment and all of that. Jake being part demon wants to break the devil ties.
He tells his not!mom (in my version) Marisol what he wants to do and because she's all into that tarot universe stuff would she know of a way to help him. She thinks he's crazy and breaks up with him.
He goes off to try to ignore the voices that tell him to kill. Yes, they're voices telling him to kill just like he was having those crazy images. ::cutting your tongue and all that:: yeesh
So, he meets up with this vampire named Angel. ::no, no no, just joking::
No, he meets up with Walt - the tattoo guy and Walt tells him that there's a loophole. He doesn't tell Walt he's part demon though. But Walt tells him that demons would never devote temselves to a life of atonement and that's what he needs to do.
But Jake's running out of time, his devil mom wants him back now! Because he's the prince of darkness or whatever. He fights the oncoming images of killing and so forth with meditation.
His mom dies, cancer or something. She comes to him in a dream while he's meditating and she tells him that atonement is about sacrificing.
Time passes by the devil doesn't seem to be after him any more. Even though he still gets the killer images, he doesn't tell anyone. Marisol comes back and while they're going out or whatever. The devil comes back and tries to kill Marisol. The devil figures if it kills Marisol Jake will be fuled with rage to go darkside. Jake sacrifices his life to save Marisol.
Jake legally dies for like five minutes or something and when he comes back he comes back ok. No more death images, no more devil so forth and so on happy ending.
OR, Jake could just die. Which to me would be a better ending than being accused for your parents murder and having blood all over yourself as the cops haul you off and probably do illegal things to you for being such a freak.
OR we can go a totally different route and have a side of good in this story. We could have someone following Jake around with the intentions of saving him. But there's so much going on in Jake's life he doesn't know who's good and who's bad. All the while his friends are dying. And he thinks he's next.
OR we could just not have Jake be the devil's son at all. And just let it be a story about a deadly video game. Because they really didn't play that whole The Pathway thing up. But a video game that constanly harrasses you in an age where we have caller id is not that scary.
I think I could do a much better movie. I'll go work on it now. I've got two more hours at work.
double shifts suck
I update often.
It's got pretty pictures.
Isn't that good enough? I won't be mad if they don't add me. It's ok. We all still love Supernatural. It's all good.
I'm going to change it soon anyway so...I don't know
I'm upset that all these sites aren't around anymore but I was glad to see that some sites have brought .org or .coms so that's REALLY awesome
I'll list them later I'm still working on the web site now. I just got sidetracked.
I have the best job right now. I sit here at the desk and answer the phone. And inbetween that time I write/do homework/ and continue my Supernatural Love! <----is that a web site name yet. It should be. I'm so hyped for the new season only a month away! Oh my God! Small spoiler highlight to see: Bobby is in the first ep of the new season.
I'll be back with the updates
SITES THAT ARE NO LONGER WITH US
is now spnfan.com
I'm sorry did some sort of plague happen that I am unaware of or is the recession so bad that people have to take extra jobs and save money where they can so that we can't enjoy our Supernatural Obsession <----is that the name of a web site yet? Because that's a good one too.
I did like these web sites, why aren't they around anymore.
And I own it.
It has taken me weeks to actually come to terms with how bad the movie is. But it is a bad movie. But I love Jensen and I just couldn't admit to it right away.
But tell me why I taped/burned it and have it on disc right now?
I watch the beginning and the middle and I just don't watch the end. I have my own ending, which you know I will post later because I am a writer and I fix things like this.
I have this fear that Jensen and Jared will quit Supernatural and we'll never see them together again. But they're sooo cool together. But I'm afraid they'll quit because of type casting.
Here's my deal...I'm watching House of Wax, ok and I'm looking at it like. OH MY GOD! Sam would never do any of this crap!
And I'm watching Jared as Wade be an ass and I'm like. Sam would've gotten out of this. What a horrible way to die. Then as Wade is being covered in the wax and all, I'm expecting Dean to jump in and save everyone.
Same thing with Devour I'm looking at it like. Damnit! If Sam were there this would never happen. But of course this was BEFORE Dean died and went to hell, so maybe the ending of Devour would have happend the same way wether Sam were there or not.
Don't drink and watch movies. It's...it's bad. I wish I was drinking when I was watching Devour.
Like, if you're a Jensen Ackles fan by all means watch Devour. You get to stare at him for about an hour and a half he's such a good actor. I really mean it. I really want him to be Matt in my dad's book. If it's ever turned into a movie!
But DO NOT watch House of Wax expecting to get a lot of Jared time in. LOL! I FF past his death. It was upsetting.
I didn't want to find out what was going to happen next just to say ha! I knew it this movie is so transparent. I just wanted to watch a movie.
I like SMG and I liked the movie. I don't care what anyone says. I LOVE the ending. It kinda reminded me of Sailor Moon. Yes, I said Sailor Moon. Whatever. It did remind me of Sailor Moon.
I liked the movie and I think that yes, it was slow in the beginning but from the time that the scruffy guy saves SMG the movie picks up.
Friday, August 15, 2008
That there's episodes in the can waiting for us to watch and be excited about when there was a time when we were unsure that we'd be getting a season 4. So keep that in mind and just be happy that Supernatural has made it when shows in Supernaturals' genre have gone away.
Man I'm so hyped. I found all these clips on youtube from ComicCon (grits teeth) since I didn't get to go. Well anyway thank God for youtube and me say I hate spoilers I don't read them. I run from them. So I'm grateful for the spoiler warnings and tags and so forth. But I clicked the link ANYWAY! And after a couple of seconds I shut if off
So the first part of the first ep of season 4 SPOILERS SPOILERS SPOILERS
Dean ***looks like*** he's waking up in a coffin. And then I shut if off, lol! I'll wait until September, ha!
1. I would not have went to a Catholic College. Because transferring is a nightmare. They're going to have you take classes that trap you. You'll lose your credits for those courses. Those courses don't matter anywhere else. They make you take religion courses that don't count anywhere else.
2. Go to community college first. Get all that core stuff out of the way, ENG101, whatever 101. Take them all at community for the first year or two and THEN go to the college you want. It looks a whole lot better saying Drexel graduate or Temple graduate then community.
Chances are the person looking at your resume would think that you worked hard and worked your way up to those colleges. Or that they themselves either graduated from Temple or Drexel. Either way you win. Besides community is cheaper.
3. If you can help it. Don't go to college as soon as you graduate. Take a full-time job for about a year. Yes, a year. That's what I would've done if I could. Take a years full-time job. It's nothing like being broke going into college for 4 or 5 years. This way you'll have money saved and something to fall back on.
4. When you are in college. Work out EVERYTHING yourself. All your classes and courses. No one cares if you graduate at that school but you. It's actually beneficial for them to keep you there as long as they possibly could. So pardon my expression if you would, but you must be up their asses every semester about the classes your taking. It may make a large difference between being in the class of 2007 or the class of 2009.
5. Do your best. There isn't a feeling more irrevocable as regret. It's there forever. But as along as you know you did everything you could and you did the best that you could. You won't feel regret. You'll know that you were wholly in control and that all your decisions and mistakes were your own and that you did what was best. There's nothing you will regret most than NOT listening to yourself.
Well, there's my two cents. And that's what I would've done. Had I had the chance to redo school. I would've taken that path. That's the most doable plan I would've taken.
The insane plan that I would've taken is...
Going to a two year college...to get some sort of certification (like real estate is 1 years worth of classes) and to be a CNA is a couple of months I think. That way I'd have a chance of getting more money when I went to take a year off to work save up money from that AND then dove into school for four years.
18-graduate high school
19-20 - take an a courses where I would be certified for a real job
20-21 - work for a year in that real job
21-25 - go to college
and I also say this because people respect age, the older but not to old that you are the more likely you'll be hired for something. They'll respect that you've been working and that you're experienced rather than someone who just got out of college.
Sunday, August 3, 2008
Saturday, August 2, 2008
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"Captain's Log Stardate...er... oh wait that's right. Stardates don't exist yet. Well anyway, April 22, 2153. I had a meeting with Vulcan's this morning. I expect things to go smoothly. My science officer/sub-commander T'Pol believes it's a waste of time to ask what I'm asking for. But I think I have a fool proof plan."
Captain Archer is sitting at a meeting with Trip and T'Pol across from them are three Vulcan representatives. "No." The Vulcan man in the middle calmly said. T'Pol looked embarrassed and Trip looked amused. Captain Archer furrowed his brow he slammed his foot on the ground as he whined. "But why?" The Vulcan man in the middle spoke again, "Because we said so. We told the humans when we made first contact that we would help you in your advances." Archer folded his arms. "You'd be helping us if you'd just tell us how to make our ships faster than warp 5." The Vulcan leader spoke again, "Is this the only reason why you've called us here?" Archer ignored the question. "C'mon you have to tell us. All the other starship captains are laughing at us!" The Vulcan leader got up and the other two followed. "Don't call us again."
Captain Archer was sad to see the Vulcan's go he held T'Pol and Trip in the meeting room for another hour complaining about how unfair they were for not giving them the technology. "Can we go now?" Trip said as soon as Archer took a breath. "We'll T'Pol you can go. Trip I need to talk to you for a little while longer." T'Pol jumped up and ran out of the room. "What's on your mind Captain'" Archer seemed confused by the question and laughed a little. "You know." Trip looked confused. "I know what?" Archer sat down next to Trip. "This is our time to be alone and talk to each other about the things that are on our mind." Archer smiled at Trip. Trip felt uncomfortable. "I don't remember us doing that." Trip tried to find away to get back to the ship's engines. "Sure we do. Every episode we have a talk. Whether it's when we're under attack in the dessert, or being attacked by the spider web version of the blob, or even that time you didn't want me to help that man find his son. Boy, you were really pissed that day. But the point is, we talk about it Trip. And I appreciate that. I can't talk to T'Pol the same way I can talk to you." Trip stared at Archer for a moment. "Did you hear that?" Trip jumped up. Archer looked around "Hear what?" Trip was out the door already he shouted back. "I think the engines are failing. I've got to go check it out!" Trip ran down the hall as fast as he could.
Mayweather and Hoshi were having a meal together and they were trying to have a private discussion. "It's true Hoshi." Hoshi looked at Mayweather very skeptically. "I think it's in your head. I'm the one with the problems." Trip rushed over sat down and he put his head down. "Hey, Trip. I thought you'd be with the Captain." Trip looked up. "Now why would you say that. Why wouldn't you think that I'd be with T'Pol or in the engine room? Or hell in sick bay?" Hoshi looked at Mayweather and smiled. "Because about 80% of the time you're with the Captain. What do you guys talk about all of the time?" Hoshi leaned in. "Hey I have an idea. How about you two tell me what you're talking about." Trip said with a big smile. Mayweather and Hoshi snickered for a second. "Well, we were discussing which one of us has the most problems." Trip frowned. "What?" Mayweather cut in. "You haven't noticed? The only people who ever save the day is you, the captain, Lt. Reed, the doctor, or T'Pol. It's hardly ever us." Trip shrugged his shoulders. "No I didn't notice." Mayweather fussed with his food. "I mean I'm always in trouble." Hoshi's face faltered. "Prove it." Mayweather pulled up a website on the screen. "It's right here on wikipedia: Over the course of the series, Mayweather has been injured, incapacitated, or even "killed" more times than any other character in the primary cast." explain that Hoshi. Hoshi looked at the web site then at Mayweather, "You're going to get your facts from wikipedia?" she made a smarty-pants face. Trip sighed. "You both suck." Trip chimed in. "No one's had the heart to tell you that, but you both do." Hoshi scoffed. "What? How do I suck?" Trip sighed. "Really Hoshi? Are we forgetting the time we were sick and you were babbling in like 40 languages while you trying to open the air lock and kill the both of us? And you..." Trip turned to Mayweather "You were supposed to be guiding US through those caves but what happens mid-way through you break your ankle." The table was quiet for a moment. "At least I don't spend half of my time with the Captain." Mayweather said in a low voice. "That's it." Trip got up and left.
Trip walking down the hall trying to get to his room until he bummed into T'Pol. "Hey T'Pol, sorry about that. Where are you headed?" T'Pol looked at Trip without emotion. "I am on my way to my quarters where I will continue to deny all of my emotions."
Suddenly the crew got a message from another ship everyone rushed to the bridge. "We're being hailed." Hoshi announced. "Gee, is that what that beeping sound was, Hoshi? Put them through." Archer snapped at Hoshi. "Hello, my name is Captain Jean-Luc Picard of the Enterprise. We are from the future. My first officer convinced me that it would be a fun time for us to travel back in time to make fun of all of you. We'll beam ourselves aboard." Jean-Luc ended the transmission. Everyone on the bridge looked confused.
After being beamed aboard the TNG crew had various laughs at Enterprise's expense. Geordi couldn't stop laughing at their transporter. "Wait, you mean to tell me that's how far it reaches?" Geordi laughed so hard he couldn't control it. Captain Archer, T'Pol and Trip followed Picard and Riker down the hall. "What warp does your ship go to?" Archer shouted. "What do you mean?" Picard looked at Riker. "All of them?" he shrugged his shoulders. Archer shouted a "Yes! How far in the future are you from?" Picard was in the dining hall looking around. "We're from 2366." Archer looked shocked. "What?" Picard looked at him. "Oh yes. By the time Enterprise would've reached maximum warp you'd be very dead, my fellow Captain." Archer frowned. "Not fair."
Picard giving up finally asks. “Where is your replicator?” Archer looked around at his crew. “Our what?” Riker started to snicker. “You’re replicator.” Picard paused and then started talking to them very slowly. “How do you get your food?” Riker tapped Picard on the shoulder. “I think they cook it.” Picard looked shocked. “What?” Archer sighed. “Okay, that’s enough.” Picard cut him off. “Wait a second…what warp does your ship go to?” Archer looked around very uncomfortably before mumbling. “Five.” Picard leaned forward. “I’m sorry I didn’t hear you. I didn’t get that.” Archer stood up straight. “Five. We go to warp five.” Trip in the background could be heard saying “Barely.” Archer shushed him but it was too late. Riker and Picard were besides themselves with laughter. The intercom systems beeped. “Will. “ It was Deanna Troi. Riker stopped laughing. “Um…uh yes.” He said finally confident. “I know you wanted to cheer the Captain up because he used to be a Borg, but now it’s time to come back home.” Riker looked around embarrassed. “Sure, honey. We’re on our way.” Picard was making fun of Riker by making whipping noises. “Hey man. Shut up. At least I have a girl.” Picard stopped laughing. “Hey… watch it. I had…I had a girlfriend.” Riker leaned forward. “Who Jean Grey?” Picard looked at Riker in shock. “No, her name was Kamala.” Riker put his hand on Picard’s shoulder. “Who cares what her name is at the end of your relationship you had to help in the ceremony to get her married to another guy. So I still have the girl and you don’t.” Picard looked mad. “Well, I’m still Captain. Try that on. And anyway if I wanted I could take Deanna away from you if I wanted.” Riker laughed. “Sure. Well this trip to the past has been funny and extremely depressing. Let’s go back home. We have to go to the bridge first.” Picard, Riker and Geordi had one long good laugh at the ships bridge before finally leaving. Archer stopped them before they were beamed up. “Captain Picard. What is a Borg?” The three looked at each other very seriously trying not to break into laughter before they were transported.
“Well, that was unsettling.” T’Pol said to no one in particular. “Trip. I want to see you in my office about this.” Hoshi and Mayweather started snickering. “Uh, sorry Cap’n I need too…uh…give T’Pol a back massage. “
Wow! I mean it. I think Supernatural fans would really like Doctor Who. But you would HAVE to start at the beginning.
Well, at any rate these last two episodes were (as the doctor would say) brilliant! I want David Tennat to be the doctor forever so I gasped when I thought he was regenerating but he didn't. It was masterfully put together and really my dad said it and I agreed these two episodes could've EASILY been a movie. A very awesome movie.
I love Dr. Who. This show makes me want to start saying "oy!" but I live in the states and there's no way ever to fit that into any conversation over here.
I'll make some icons later.
So awesome, Mickey's going to join Torchwood. Whoo. I like what Mickey has grown into he's not a wimp.
I have pangs of irritation when it comes to the Doctor clone. Dad doesn't like him because he says you just simply can't have two doctors. I'm annoyed because he runs off with Rose. And I'm like ew. I mean he was literally born yesterday so what is he like 1? Or is he 903 years old, or is he in his 40s? Any one you choose he'll be old for Rose. And I know, I know the age thing is old school. But I think it's a rule I don't care what form the doctor is in, no doctor companion love.
Like really picture it, the doctor and Rose getting it on. oh gosh. I think Russell is channelling that Diary of a Call Girl show, a tad too much there.
Friday, August 1, 2008
Pic from: TV Chit Chat
Pic from Supernatural.tv
Sam just got SHOT. Why is he carrying the shovel?
While Dean carrys a bag that looks like there's nothing in it.
They refunded everyone's money but there's no way to refund our flight from PA to TX or to refund the hotel rooms. Not to mention the promotional materials we brought for the fans. This was our first convention. The convention was cancelled after one day.
First of all, I want to say all of the other guests were professional and outstanding. My dad enjoyed meeting all of you.
John Billingsley (I look forward to seeing you on 24 next season)
Bonita Friedericy (I look forward to seeing you more on Chuck and future projects)
Menina Fortunato (Thanks for stopping by to say hello)
But the big thanks goes to Lindsey McKeon and the Cole and Tim of Vadercast.
Mainly because I knew her from the IMTOD, Supernatural episode and I'm a big Supernatural fan. So just think your at this convention to help promote your dad's book Escape 2 Earth and then you find out everything is over. You took off of work and flew out here for nothing. I mean we got a couple of sales that Friday but Saturday is the big day it wasn't even 12:00 yet and you find out it's all over.
I'm darn near hysterical (not really but I was close to crying). And I got her autograph. It was very sweet of her and I doubt if she'll remember me tomorrow but it was very nice of her to not only sign an autograph for me but to also take a picture with me so that made the day better. So instead of all bad, it was half bad.
I hope to meet all of these people again one day. Prefferably at a better managed convention.
If I feel like it I'll post the picture.
Now the Vadercast folks I also ran into in my state of crazy woman panic while they were announcing the cancellation. I met Cole who introduced my dad to Tim and the two later on interviewed my dad about his book soon to be books. Escape 2 Earth. Return 2 Earth is coming real soon.
Big miss. I missed meeting Conner Trinneer. Darn! He was only there on Saturday at the same time that we were and SO MANY people signed up to get his autograph. So I missed meeting him. One day, Conner, one day.
I immediately freaked out and looked away. Of course my dad's suspicions that I'm absolutely crazy were confirmed until I explained to him what I was upset about and I'm pretty sure he still thinks I'm crazy.
But that upset me. Really CW, putting spoilers on tv is not chill! I avoid spoilers like the plague. I hate spoilers. One time I spoiled myself for Roswell. I found out that Alex was going to die and I NEVER read a spoiler EVER again. It's horrible.
I want to be completely shocked this season. Shocked in a good way. Kim, Eric and Sera be good.
And he also thinks that John Billingsley would make a great president. I think he would too.
I would LOVE that!
Now where would Jared fit in???
What kind of character will the new girl be? I know she's going to be Sam's girlfriend, and gosh does he need one. But did she arrive after Dean comes back? Does she arrive before Dean comes back? Is she evil? Is she not who she seems to be? Will I like her and then will Eric and co. kill her? Will any of this be good to the show???
And then I realized, all this speculation will not only ruin my summer, but my social life - the small life that it is. So I am taking a vow that I think all Supernatural fans should take:
My Supernatural Vow
I, Lauren one of the biggest Supernatural fans, vow not to hate the new girl before she has her episode debut. I promise not to prejudge her and be as objective as I possibly could.
Now onto her info: Supernatural Catches Wildfire Beauty
Hmm, maybe losing one's sibling to the eternal fires of Hades ain't the absolute worst thing in the world? I mean, just look at the sympathy cuddling! Wildfire spitfire Genevieve Cortese has been cast on the CW's Supernatural in the role of Kristy, a small-town waitress who gets romantically involved with Jared Padalecki's Sam sometime after the brooder's brother Dean's death.Thus far, Cortese is slated to at least appear in the Season 4 premiere, airing Sept. 18. — Matt Mitovich
she's very pretty
Ahhhhhhh. Trying so hard not to prejudge. I'm sure she'll be a wonderful addition. I think. I hope.
I like the fact that they chase urban legends, maybe it's true maybe it's not type of thing. I love that - we need to get back to that. They're are some episodes that I see that I'm like I'm sure I just KNOW what's going to happen - like I do when I watch Heroes. But this show I'll tell you Bloody Mary was the first episode where I was like, where is this going? And it was eerie how Sam was seeing Jess and dreaming about her - freaky.
Then Nightmare, and I'm like whoa kids with powers (I'm so there!). But then the guy killed himself and I'm like hmmm, didn't see that coming. I figured he was going to be the evil guy of the year. But then he...killed himself. I got thrown off my game again in In My Time of Dying, and they totally killed John. I wouldn't eat for weeks. Okay, that's not true, but I was not happy.
It's really upsetting if you think about it, these guys spend a year looking for their dad and he was fine up until the time that they find him.
I felt like John's friends being killed everywhere was pretty much a running gag, so that didn't shock me. What shocked me was burning up the Roadhouse, killing Ash and Andy - the hell guys? Fine. I got over that faster than John dying.
The next time I was suprised was No Rest for the Wicked. I shake my head when I think about that episode.
My mother loves the show too, she's the one who got me to watch it.
I normally don't curse, but that night I was cussing you guys out like a sailor.
I'm still in shock. I really can't believe that you really killed him. Sam's all by himself now, again. He still remembers the 3 months from Mystery Spot don't think I forgot.
You guys want to jerk me around, that's fine! Good tv, but we better start getting answers here's your season 4 checklist:
1. What is up with Mary?
2. JDM flashback is something we have to have. He's awesome and his voice is just not enough.
3. Clarify the rules of the Colt please. Or are we mass producing them now?
4. Rich hunters. Bela mentioned them, the boys never meet them. Think on that.
5. Sam's powers: I'm in no rush for him to be evil, but the YED said there were other generations.
6. Are they always going to be driving around? They should at least have an apartment or something for a little while.
7. Fix the filter, please. Please. Krip, if you screw with the filter again, I'll break your fingers. (No I won't it's just something I say.)
8. More urban legends. More, damn it!
Well, that's my list of demands. You guys are jerks. Edge of my seat jerks. I'm happy and I'm annoyed. I haven't been this confused and angry since the season finale of Desperate Housewives, but that was a bad confused and angry.
Anyway the seasons so far have been great. Except for Bela and Jo. I just you know how I feel about them. And thanks for my missing organs episode, I've only been asking for it since I first started watching which was mid-season 2.
If you ever had a contest of where your accepting scripts or walk on roles. I'll be there in a hot second!
I better get started on my own story. I'm inspired to piss fans off but at the same time keep them captivated.
I dislike Bela.
So Sorry Bela fans but I'm not going to give you the standard stupid reasons why I hate Bela.
Like: she shot Sam, or I hate her voice, or her overbite, or her hair or she flirts with Dean. Although those reasons do add to the irritation.I hate Bela because she was clearly thrown in there. Bad Day at Black RockThat should of been the first and last time we see Bela. Fine I'll give you one more episode for her, but that should of been it.What is she?Is she a mercenary/theif or a con-artist because the next time we see her she's scammin old ladies. I know, I know who wants a character to have just one agenda because that'll make her one-dimentional. But come on! The boys have been hunting for their lives and they've never met or heard about anyone like her?
The Inconsistency: You can't in one episode not care if Sam dies shoot the man and then work together in the next episode we see her. Knowing what kind of person she is and her motives the boys still work together with her and are all "Oh, oh my God I'm so shocked she stole from us!" When the hand is stolen from them? She shot Sam why are you working with her in the first place? John would've never let them do something like that.
She's Useless: What in the world was the point of her being in Fresh Blood? Did Gordon really need her to find Sam and Dean? He found them before. Yes, yes, Roadhouse connections - no more Roadhouse. But Gordon said before "You know how hunters like to talk." He could of found them another way.
Then the phone call where she's all don't kill me.
A) Do you really think Dean was going to kill Bela? and
B) The info she gave wasn't very helpful. You could've taken that scene out of the episode and the show still would of went on without skipping a beat.ObviousnessNow we're supposed to care about her, after we've been conditioned to hate her. Ohhh, Bela who'd you kill? Here's why it'll be cliche and predictable. Her father was probably a hunter.
(She's obviously has issues with hunters.) She probably had to off her dad in a mercy killing type thing. You watch. I'll eat a brussel sprout if it's nothing like I just said. And boy do I hate those things. And you watch, the "mojo bag" that's so precious that Gordon is walking around with it out in the open on his waist. Will play a major part in her becoming a good character and helping the boys out. Which will also annoy me to no end.And oh yea, she freaking shot Sam.
You can't justify that. It's not okay to shoot people, ever! I don't care if you barely grazed him or not. What the hell is wrong with her? (I know she's not real. I feel like I have to say that because people are crazy and might believe this show and the characters are real.)
I'm all for new characters. Ensemble cast? Heh, no. We have enough of those, I'm getting tired of it. We don't need a show with ten or more characters, that's annoying. Supernatural is about the brothers to me, the story is too character driven for new people to be thrown in this carelessly.
Sorry if I've hurt anyone's feelings. Though I doubt that seriously, lol!
Time Is On My Side
So I was wrong about her father being a hunter. I didn't see rapist coming. I eventually saw the demon deal coming, but that was dumb too. You have a year left to live and you spend it as if it were any other year? You wait about three months before your deal is up to set things straight? Yea, ok. Oh, gosh. Bela annoyed me. I was all she JUST tried to kill Sam and Dean and now she's on the phone crying for their help. Yes, I feel bad that you were abused as a child but not everyone grows up to be a jerk like she is stealing from people and shooting sexy Sam!
I don't want to see Bela anymore or hear about her anymore. I never thought I'd almost miss Jo. But her poor flirting skills were insufferable, not the actresses' fault. Maybe Jo reminded me too much of myself, oh boy. Time to go.
I don't mean Lauren Cohan any ill will or any harm. Actually I think she's a really good actress. If she's in an upcoming movie or show I'd watch it because I enjoy watching her perform. I just want her off of Supernatural. I love this show.
Bobby -- who is freakin' awesome. We find out how he got into hunting. His wife, I always guessed it was his wife, or a child. But wife came to mind first. This makes me think about how he and John became friends. The two of them lost their wives to evil. We finally hear Dean say that he thinks of Bobby as a father, and I don't think anyone else thought otherwise, but I don't think Bobby realized it. I don't think he sees Sam and Dean as his sons but I guess now he does.
This in conjuncture with what happens to Dean later on is important to this episode.
Dean -- everyone on God's blue Earth knows that Dean resents his father and is jealous of Sam. I don't blame the guy, but living with that, coping and then moving on is what Dean needs to do, but how? How do you break from the only life you've known how to live? It's not simple to just quit. It's more complex. Dean doesn't care if he lived or died, because John didn't. Not until he had to face it back during IMTOD. It was all peachy when Dean was dying in Faith, but John wasn't around, he didn't have to face Dean or Sam let alone accept responsibility. And to Dean, John gave up pretty easily making the deal with the demon for Dean. Dean was still carrying that guilt around for his father, and now the same happend for Sam. IMO Bobby showed more emotion for what Dean did for Sam (making the deal) than I think John would've if John were around to see what Dean did.
The whole scene was chilling. Dean talking to himself. Jensen Ackles is a wonderful actor. It was very creepy to watch. Dean beat himself and the later shoot himself and then the whole "You're gonna die!" I'm like "Oh God!" But it was awsome. The way the episode was shot especially the dreams was excellent. And at the end when demon Dean snaps his fingers --haunting. Very haunting.
Sam -- now here's the more subtle enchilada. Sam's going to turn evil, no bones about it. As a writer you don't do this much set up and character worry over something that's not going to happen. It's subtle but Sam's turning evil. You saw how he shot up Jake in AHBL2, and you saw how he wasted Gordon, and you saw how he iced Casey and the priest. And I know what you're going to say. But Lauren, those were all evil people/demons. Alright what about DALDOM? Yes, this guy was homicidal, but Sam whomped on the guy with a bat! Sure he would've killed Dean, but Sam didn't give the guy the chance to work up to getting close to Dean. Remember when the guy was beating Sam when he was tied to the ground. Sam looked a little like he enjoyed it. Well, not enjoyed it but he was feeding off of it to use his powers later.
Sam drinking at 2 in the afternoon - evil.
Sam and Bela -- first I was enraged and was all, what the hell is this sh*t. The producers just wanted Lauren Cohan in a nightie, WHATEVER! But then I calmed down and told me inner fangirl to shut up, and that even if I did meet Jared or Jensen there's no way they'd run off with me anyway, so what am I getting mad about? Then I thought about it more. Sam did think Bela was hot when he first met her, when he thought she was a waitress. But yea, she did shoot him! Sam is turning evil because that's that whole masochist, I like pain S and M crap. Being shot by Bela probably turned Sam on, which is not like Sam which means Sam is evil. Sam's evil - the end. After Sam saves Dean. Dean'll have to save Sam, because there's no way he's going to kill him.
I missed Azazel. We hardley knew thee.
I feel like I need to address Bela since I have another page saying that I hate her. She was okay in this episode because she was marginalized. She was also okay because Dean was acting like himself. Sam wasn't but that's because he hadn't had any in awhile and he's turning evil so that's his deal. It wasn't an episode that centered around Bela or had Bela in it for no reason. She brought the plant, stole the gun, and stayed the fuck out of everyone's way.
Sam might kill Bela. I think he gets off on killing. They've mentioned it twice in the show. I think he gets a rush from killing. Sam's getting creepy. I'm starting to love him more though - I know it's sick.
Damnit Kripke and Sera - you guys are jerks. Call me.
I'll start importing the web sites to the blog today.
Check it out. And if you want send me your supernatural links if not listed. I'm so jazzed for the season 3 boxset I have it on pre-order and I'm super excited for Season 4. Oh god! Oh! I can post my videos here too! Groovy.